In life, we are bound to many unexpected happenings in many instances. Some of these may create happiness, but some others might hurt. It came to my attention ever since then, but I have never seriously ponder over it. I have always tell myself, these will be the past, and let them be in history. Life has to move on for me and for many others. However, to some point, it just wouldnt halt.
I have never try to explain myself. Not because I admit that I was wrong, but rather its about being mature. We are all grown-ups, young adults, and someone in this working society. The moment when we wave goodbye to the schools, we know we are going to face something more…I would say, real. Not being real, but the reality. For the majority of us, we deeply understand what kind of reality, what kind of world and society that we are living in, placing ourselves from places to places. Most critically, the people that we come and came across. This world is fake, this is a reality, and a very cruel fact indeed. We keep believing and in a way, it turns out to be lying to ourselves permanently. Before going on, I have to make this clear that I am not trying to portrait “extreme” perspectives. Frankly, there are friends who will really walk with you through-out this life. Not every moment, but a couple of it. I have quite a handful, which are meant to be kept forever. Some friends, used to be very great friends, shit on you and left - and continue shitting. Some friends, came in for awhile and step on you before leaving. Some came and left quietly. In some ways, I did asked myself, what have I done that I will need to take these and swallow quietly. And what can be done so these would not have happened.
It has been the same old story, coming from the same old root. I would say I have experience many problems in regards to the handling of friendship. I am tired and we are all tired. Its just like the same whirlpool in the middle of the sea, and creates some tsunami that somehow will kill. Then we go and clear up all the mess over and over again, until I feel nothing in regards to this. Why cant we always look at the big picture, and question the sense and logic of those stories before we make any judgement? In many ways, I feel unjustified. My second thought however told me that, has this world ever even been justifiable. Third thought - nope, not at all. Why should I even care? Why should I even explain?
I am not trying to complain or try to blame anyone here. If really have to find out whose fault, I would say its all my fault. Its just a few thoughts of mine which I really wish to pen this down. Whether this will continues or not, or even get worst, it will not have any effect anymore.
There are many things in life that are worth more for our attention and concern. Why not we do something much more meaningful rather than creating that “tsunami”? Some instances, we cant even handle our own problems well, why must we step into others and create a mess out of it? And some people just will not understand and dint even try to understand. Have they ever have the courtesy to step into people’s shoes and stand in their viewpoint or feelings? - No. You might hurt someone, but you will always be the ultimate victim as you will ruin everything that was once beautiful.
Well, life have to go on. Now, stronger than before. I still have my family, my baby, my bunches of great friends and colleagues. I am not angry, really. As in, what for? What will you get when you keep cursing, and in the end, we will still part with this world. So, live life to the fullest and do more meaningful things, that will make you and the people around you happy. :)
